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09:52am 28/08/2005
 
mood: blah
music: Pretty Girls Make Graves
so, the first two days weren't bad. they weren't exciting either. i just want this year to be over. i already have a lot of work to do. it really sucks. plus, i'm working quite a bit on the weekends. the job isn't too bad, it's just kind of boring. Everyone who works there is really nice, so thats good. I don't get paid much, either. Like, $5.50. But I guess it's money. On the other hand, i will have NO social life whatsoever if they keep scheduling me for friday nights and saturday nights. I officially don't like closing. But enough of my bitching. Its not a horrible job.		  
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05:30pm 14/06/2005
 
mood: exhausted
music: The Secret Machines
so... my b-day came and went. nothing big. some very nice gifts. this week i have been working as a counselor, and that's been kind of exhausting. i have this autistic kid in my group... like the guy in I Am Sam, if you've ever seen that movie. he's really hard to work with. sometimes he just decides that he doesn't want to do anything, so he just stands around or walks around, and doesn't talk. if you try to talk to him, he just looks at you. that gets really annoying. i'm co-counselors with this cheerleader who goes to wakefield... jenna davis? she's pretty nice i guess. but yeah... this kid can be really cute at the same time.. i don't know. the other kids are okay. the first day these boys were switching their name tags, and that was annoying. today one guy heard me accidently say shit, and kept saying "oh... she said a bad word!" all day. i kind of feel bad for them though, because they're 5th/6th/7th graders... so they're going into middle school.. and i HATED middle school. i don't know.		  
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06:40pm 01/06/2005
 
mood: restless
music: The Blood Brothers, of course
ahh i'm in some alternate universe or something. first, i get not one, but TWO job applications today. then, i get home, and i decide to go for a run. i can't remember the last time i voluntarily went for a run. i don't know. i think i just had to get out of the house and away from people being all.... blah.		  
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cheer up, buttercup   
04:13pm 10/05/2005
 
mood: stressed
music: Autolux: Sub-Zero Fun
oh my, am i stressed. i have two algebra two projects, one of which is not a problem, but the other one is just annoying and i don't want to do it. then, i have a chorus concert on thursday. we are going to suck. i don't know why i still care about that. i really shouldn't. then.... the main thing that is stressing me out: the english world war two project. i have actually started working on it, so i guess that's good. thank god for cliffnotes and sparknotes, that's all i have to say. oh, and how could i forget. the lovely weddings that are quickly approaching. i'm leaving for my aunt's wedding a week from friday. then my mom is freaking out because the caterer for my brother's rehersal dinner quit. i guess the guy hadn't sent any info, so my brother freaked out and called him..... and threatened legal action???? what the fuck. now my mom is complaining about yet another thing. awesome.

on a better note, the blood brothers show might happen. my dad i guess is willing to drive down, which is amazing, but if he stays and watches the show..... i will never see the light of day again, let alone another show. especially if The Plot's show is anything like they say it is. i think i might want to go to that more than warped tour... although i really want to go to warped. i don't know.		  
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hmm   
03:59pm 20/04/2005
 
mood: uncomfortable
music: Hawthorne Heights
i'm feeling WAY too emo. seriously. it's freaking me out. i just ate some girl scout cookies (thin mints, of course) and i probably ate a few too many. then i started feeling really fat. i don't usually obsess about my weight, but i just started to. i don't know why. so i was seriously thinking about going and throwing it all up. and if that made ANY sense to anyone (because it makes no sense to me) i don't know. i'm just freaked out. and i just said that. jesus. i think my dog knows, too, because he keeps licking my leg and its wet and nasty.		  
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04:39pm 19/04/2005
 
mood: good
music: Le Tigre
So I decided I would actually update this. I'm very bad about updating. Hayley, Kylie and I ate outside at lunch today... and it was wonderful because we weren't bothered by any annoying people. We just talked, ate, and listened to the Blood Brothers. Lisa wants to do the battle of the bands... but i am very apprehensive about it because we STILL don't have a drummer (no thanks to that asshole Frenchie)... and i don't know. I just don't. This weekend I really need to get out of the house. I think i will break lots and lots of household items if i am around my parents too much this weekend. That is the one downside to summer. I have to be around my parents. That's also the bad thing about them being teachers. They don't work during the summer, so they are ALWAYS around. They tell me that my social life messes up their social life... but in truth, they don't have one.		  
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eh   
05:39pm 01/03/2005
 
mood: apathetic
music: The Mars Volta
We took the writing test today. The prompt was something like, "write about the meaning of individuality." It wasn't so bad, considering the 4th grade prompt was something about a tree with a door in it. So as I was sitting in the most uncomfortable desk EVER after the test, I realized that I am so over high school. I don't want to have any part in the clubs, dances, games, or the people any more. Its just so annoying. Annoying really isn't the right word... but its the only one that comes to mind. GOD i read too much Chuck Palahniuk. Anyway, I'm ready for college.
I'm bitter because my mom told me this morning that we were planning on going to san francisco this summer, but since my brother's getting married, we have to pay for that. I know that this is totally wrong and evil to think... but yeah, i've never been off the east coast. i would rather go to san francisco than to erwin, north carolina - the denim capital OF THE WORLD!!
My Dad got me the new Mars Volta cd today! I'm very excited. A lot of it is in spanish, which is cool. I know i had other things to write about, but i forget. Thats all for now, then.		  
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THE MARS VOLTA!!!   
06:47pm 27/02/2005
 
mood: crappy
music: Death From Above 1979




Frances the Mute -- out Tuesday!		  
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I Think I'm Going Crazy   
04:31pm 26/01/2005
 
mood: indescribable
music: Bright Eyes, Arienette and When the President Talks to God
Seriously, I think I'm going crazy. Today I almost forgot my purse at lunch, which I NEVER DO!! I am absent minded about some things... but never my purse. My purse is my life. You don't understand. It has my money, my iPOD, my Davey Havok gloves, my cell phone, my Nirvana patch, and my three pins. It is the best purse EVER!! So I would have forgotten it, but Amanda (thankfully) called me back and gave it to me. Also.. this morning I was talking REALLY loud because I was listening to Underoath... but I don't know if that qualifies as going crazy, because I do that all the time. Anyway.. the real reason that I think I'm going crazy is that the other day in chorus, this guy John came up to me and told me he was going to Bright Eyes, and I just got really mad and started screaming. Like screaming at the top of my lungs, screaming. And everyone in the class turned and looked at me and was just like, "Is she okay?"... and yeah, i think they all think that I'm crazy, and I really do too. I really have no idea what went through my brain and decided, "hey, let's scream at this kid, cause that would be fun" because i did not conciously decide to do it. seriously. i didn't. it just came out. so the next day i think this girl was talking about me "spazing out", but i dunno. so i do think it's quite funny that i started screaming, and, like i told kylie, i wish i had a video tape or something of it, so i could see the look on John's face when i did it. he hasn't talked to me since then...
anyways, my mom is coming back tonight. it's weird, because today is the only afternoon that i have expected her to be home... like i keep looking out the window, thinking that her car will suddenly turn in the driveway. apparently i am getting some of my aunt monica's jewelry.. i don't know what i think about it.... i mean, i can't be excited about it, because my aunt is dead, and that is the reason that i'm getting the jewelry. on the other hand, it will probably be some african jewelry or something really cool, because she lived in africa for a long time. GOD thats so fucking unfair. its so unfair that someone who had no appreciation for the culture or the people or for life for that matter got to live in all these exotic places, when people like me who really want to live in those places have never even been off of the east coast. but i don't really feel like venting about my aunt right now.. but i probably will some other time, so if you really want to hear, just ask.		  
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